We started out absolutely hating each others guts but now we’re boyfriend/girlfriend and honestly… I’m loving it so far.
We used to yell at each other from across the classroom and now you’re whispering things in my ear. We used to poke each other out of utter rage and frustration, now you’re tickling me while saying “tickle the little baby”. We used to throw things at each other and now we’re sharing food. I don’t know how we got here, I don’t know when you started liking me or when I started liking you but.. I don’t regret it. Maybe from the moment I met you, we were somehow destined to be and end up together.
Yeah, maybe. I remember when I was in my freshman year and you were in your sophomore year.. you complimented me on how cute my voice sounded but I didn’t accept that compliment because I was afraid. I was afraid you were just joking around and that you didn’t really mean it but I guess you did.
Back then, I was afraid of getting to close to you because everyone I’ve ever been close to has either hurt me or just stopped talking to me in general. So I pushed you away and you were never friendly like that to me again for the rest of the year. Did I regret pushing you away? Yes because I noticed how special you would treat another girl in our class. I noticed how gentle and sweet and kind and friendly and just plain nice you were to her and I was jealous because I wanted that. I wanted you.
A couple months passed and I had fallen completely head over heels with this guy. We’ll call him N. I think I just had a crush on him because I gave up on you. I let you go and I attempted to move on. But I couldn’t and no matter how much I claimed to like and adore him, I didn’t like him as much I like you. I didn’t feel anything with him. There was no.. rush or spark or anything with him, I just liked to pretend there was.
Everything changed on December 3rd, 2013 though. That was the day you asked me to be your girlfriend and I can’t even put into words how I felt when you did. It was just like a rush of mixed emotions. At first I thought you were kidding but then when you got on the mic (because we were playing video games online) and asked me a second time, I said yes. It was in that exact moment that I realized that I wasn’t over you. I was still in love with you.
We’ve been together for five days now. I know it’s just five days but I’m happy about that. I hope we last for five centuries. I hope you don’t lose interest in me because my feelings for you grow stronger and stronger each and every day. You’re my first real boyfriend and I’m your first real girlfriend. I know people say first loves don’t last that long but I want us to last forever. I want us to be the couple that proves everyone wrong when they say “first loves don’t last forever”. I want us to be the couple that everyone thinks “damn, they’re still together?”. I want us to be the couple that lasts longer than the other two couples in our classes. That may sound cheesy but it’s true.
Because of you I am now listening to love songs all day, everyday. I am now smiling whenever I wake up and whenever I go to sleep. I am now happy. Happier than I’ve ever been. I am now thinking about you all day and I hope you’re thinking about me too.
My favorite thing about us is that we were once those two people who couldn’t stand each other. Now we can’t get enough of each other. I also enjoy playing video games with you too. c;
What I meant to say in this whole thing was.. I really, really like you. I really, really care for you. I’ll always be here for you and I hope we last forever, bubby.